I miss you. Yesterday, I actually felt like we were together. I felt way different on that day. you made me feel different. I want to Get that feeling again. You make a difference in my life. I’m soo afraid of losing you. I miss you more than I ever did. I love you<3
We spent like almost the whole day together. We had fun. Went to tha beach for josies birthday. And ate at “johns incredible pizza”. It was pretty incredible lol. Well me and her had fun in the bumper karts there. Soo yea today was pretty fun(: ahahahahha what do you think pineapple baby?(: just reblog to answer[:
2397.) Every smile you sneak to me, every hug we embrace, every giggle you make me extract, every time you look directly into my eyes, every little touch, it all makes me crazy. Every little one of these things start to make me happy. But then the constant reminder of how we're only going to be friends smashes them to tiny pieces.
I feel like getting shot by a paintball gun. I have one but I don’t want shoot myself. I wanna play a match and get that adrenilin running through my body. Get all those welts and bruises on my body. Get shot in the mask and get freaked out like hell. Get hit by paintballs that are coming from a gun that shoots like 5 balls per sec. Just imagine getting hit by 5 paintballs that go at speed of almost idk 10 to 15 mph. Idk. I just like getting shot with a paintball gun it feels good especially with the adrenilin running through your body. Yea I’m weird I know-___-
Whew today was pretty depressing. I watched a movie “Gran Torino”. I watched the old guy get shot like more than 50 times by a bunch of Korean gangsters. Stayed in my room all day laying in bed playing Mario and luigi on my ds. Got boring. But as the day went on she made it better.
Why I love you is a hard question to answer. I love you because you care for me like no one else I know. I love the way I feel in your arms, so safe from dangers in the world. I love your eyes, so hyptonic and mesmerizing, beautiful to gaze into, and yet never revealing anything to me. I can’t explain every way I love you because that’s impossible. But I can say I love you because I love you for you.
“Love isn’t him calming you down when you yell. It’s him yelling, just as loud, just as hard, right back at you, right in your face to wake you up and keep you grounded. It isn’t him bringing you roses everyday or cute things that make your relationship appear more presentable. It’s after a long fight, that drains the life and bones out of both of you, and yet him showing up at your door the next morning anyway. It’s not him saying all the right things or knowing exactly how to handle you. It’s not him caressing your hair and telling you everything is going to be alright. It’s him standing there, admitting he’s just as scared as you are. You have to remember that with love, you’re not the only one involved. You’ve unknowingly put your life, your heart into the palms of another person’s hands and said, “Here. Do what you will. Mash it into mince meat, or forget I ever handed it to you.”—(via abcdefgily)
i cant let u go evry where i look in my room theres always something there that reminds me of u. bracelet necklace notes we used to write bak and forth its only been like wat an hour since we broke up and i already miss u i wish we didnt break up but i guess this is it i want u to come bak but i have to let u go and i cant i feel so terriable i dnt evn kno y i sent this to u god i shuldnt evn be doin this its making feel worse omg i already want u bak but i already kno wat ur gona say “how are we gona work out these problems” i gotta go i havent evn went to sleep yet well i dnt kno wat say anymore im freakin cryn all ovr place i gotta go i dnt think i can seep ill just stay up
baby i want you back.
im not understanding you im confused please explain it to me
i let you go so im taking you back.
babe iloveyou soo much i wish i culd hold u rite now im glad i wrote that
I give you my whole effing attention to you every time I see you in person. But you know what you do? Huh? You walk away. And everytime i see you in person you want to go home? Do you not want to be with me? Or do you just make me come there just so that you can waste my time? Is this like a game to you? Do i have to play tag so you could chase me back? I stay on aim just so that you could message me cuz I don’t know when the hell your on. I wait for you to message me. But after you message me you make me wait another half hour to another hour. I even make myspace send me notifications to see if I got a new message. You even have my number. I can’t call you. I can’t text you cuz you dont have a phone. That’s why I try to make most of my effing time trying to talk to you. I take advantage of everytime you message me. But you just wont let that happen. I sacrifice doing homework just trying to talk to you. You say you miss me but you don’t talk to me throughout the whole day. It’s like you wait until I’m sleepy and I fall asleep on you. Do you not like talking to me? I don’t even know if you do miss me. I don’t know if your just saying those words. I’m just not gonna waste anymore of my freaking time waiting for you. It’s not me that makes things complicated it’s you. Not me but you. I try really hard to make myself available to you. But it appears to me that you wont take those chances. You take those chances very late. And if you say i ruin everything then why are you still with me? Why do you stay with a guy that makes you unhappy? When you came along you made my ruined times better. I guess i do the oppisite to yours. And do you even still love me? Cuz deep down inside of me i really love you. I dont know about you. And if you dont love me then just stop wasting my time. I dont want to waste my time on a girl that doesn’t love me back when I love really love that girl. Soo I don’t know. You tell me what you have to say. I just effing give up. I’m done trying. I just don’t care no more. I guess not all hard work pays off. That’s just a lie. That just makes you keep trying get you tired and make you get fed up with it. Hard work pays off when things happen the way you want things happen not the oppisite.
I feel soo effing good. I went to the gym today Hellas lifted what I couldn’t lift. Man I feel like punching a wall rite now that’s how good I feel rite now. I know it doesn’t make sense but ohh well. Gonna go again tomorrow. I feel like my muscles are just gonna burst rite out of my arm. Ahahha.